Do you think you have messed up so bad it can't be fixed?

Mark 6
31Then, because so many people were coming and going that they did not even have a chance to eat, he said to them, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.” 32So they went away by themselves in a boat to a solitary place. 33But many who saw them leaving recognized them and ran on foot from all the towns and got there ahead of them. 34When Jesus landed and saw a large crowd, he had compassion on them, because they were like sheep without a shepherd. So he began teaching them many things. 35By this time it was late in the day, so his disciples came to him. “This is a remote place,” they said, “and it’s already very late. 36Send the people away so that they can go to the surrounding countryside and villages and buy themselves something to eat.” 37But he answered, “You give them something to eat.” They said to him, “That would take more than half a year’s wages[e] ! Are we to go and spend that much on bread and give it to them to eat?” 38“How many loaves do you have?” he asked. “Go and see.” When they found out, they said, “Five—and two fish.” 39Then Jesus directed them to have all the people sit down in groups on the green grass. 40So they sat down in groups of hundreds and fifties. 41Taking the five loaves and the two fish and looking up to heaven, he gave thanks and broke the loaves. Then he gave them to his disciples to distribute to the people. He also divided the two fish among them all. 42They all ate and were satisfied, 43and the disciples picked up twelve basketfuls of broken pieces of bread and fish. 44The number of the men who had eaten was five thousand. 45Immediately Jesus made his disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to Bethsaida, while he dismissed the crowd. 46After leaving them, he went up on a mountainside to pray. 47Later that night, the boat was in the middle of the lake, and he was alone on land. 48He saw the disciples straining at the oars, because the wind was against them. Shortly before dawn he went out to them, walking on the lake. He was about to pass by them, 49but when they saw him walking on the lake, they thought he was a ghost. They cried out, 50because they all saw him and were terrified. Immediately he spoke to them and said, “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” 51Then he climbed into the boat with them, and the wind died down. They were completely amazed, 52for they had not understood about the loaves; their hearts were hardened.

Mark 9
21Jesus asked the boy’s father, “How long has he been like this?” “From childhood,” he answered. 22“It has often thrown him into fire or water to kill him. But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us.” 23“ ‘If you can’?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for one who believes.” 24Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” 25When Jesus saw that a crowd was running to the scene, he rebuked the impure spirit. “You deaf and mute spirit,” he said, “I command you, come out of him and never enter him again.” 26The spirit shrieked, convulsed him violently and came out. The boy looked so much like a corpse that many said, “He’s dead.” 27But Jesus took him by the hand and lifted him to his feet, and he stood up.

 I saw on Facebook yesterday a post that said:
"You are incomparably made, uniquely loved, and powerfully purposed. God's promises for your life are without rival, and his plans for you are beyond compare. Perhaps you've felt like you've veered off course, but God's pursuit of us is greater than our ability to wander. If you think you've blown God's plan for your life, rest in this. You, my beautiful friend, are not that powerful. He is a God of restoration and redemption, and He makes all things new." Lisa Bevere

If you think you've blown God's plan for your life, rest in this. You, my beautiful friend, are not that powerful. Insightful!  So, three disciples in the Mark passage above  can't figure out how to feed 5,000 people and they can't figure out how Jesus walks on water either. In fact, they are afraid when they see Jesus walking on the water even though they are His disciples and have seen his miracles over and over and over again. 

I think if these disciples can have moments of doubt, then when I have moments of doubt, I shouldn't dwell on the moment afterwards, but what God accomplished in that moment instead. After all, the disciples were right there standing next to Jesus. They saw and heard everything He said. Yet they still had doubts. Jesus still showed them great miracles!

So, that indicates to me, that I should just work through my moments of doubt and fear, knowing God, who is all powerful, will guide me through it! As Lisa Bevere said, I am NOT that powerful, but God isl! He will get me through it! And as the "boy's father" in Mark 9 said, "I believe, help me overcome my unbelief"!

Thank you, God, for your love and mercy and grace and power and constant care! Thank you for being all powerful and in control of everything. Thank you that when things look the worst, you are still there. The situation may not turn out as I had planned, but it will turn out for your glory! To You be the glory!  In Jesus name I pray. Amen.