It seems my testimony/witness bears no fruit

I hear others talking about people they have led to Christ. I try to think of whom exactly have I led to Christ. The list is short. Then I think of whom I should be leading to Christ and the list is very long. I don't see progress. Shouldn't I see progress? Am I not trying hard enough? Am I trying too hard and pushing people away? Do I need to speak up more? Do I speak up too boldly and turn people away? Do I start talking about God and His love for humanity by sending Christ at the wrong time? Is there a wrong time? Is there a right time?

I think all of these are questions I have asked myself at one time or another. The best thing to do when I am having doubts about what I should and shouldn't do is go to scripture.

Galatians 6:9
And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.

Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.

Psalm 37:4-6
Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act. He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.

Mark 16:15
He said to them, "Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation.


Look at these verses carefully. No where in them does it say that I will control the outcome of my conversations. No where does it say I will even learn the outcome. The scriptures say I should persevere, trust God's understanding not mine, God will act, just do it!

So, that means that my focus when I am questioning things is on me and what I do and don't see happening. However, scripture tells me not to focus on me, but on God and doing His work. It is not my work; it is His work. I am His hands and feets. I am the one people meet and hear. God is the one who brings them to salvation, and maybe sometimes He does that in spite of me.

I just need to go and tell. 

Father, thank you for the privilege of sharing salvation with others. Thank you that you will do your work no matter how clumsy I might be at telling others. Thank you that all who will believe you will ensure they get there! In Jesus name I pray. Amen.